september14
it's like being picked last for everything.
&I give up.

september16
I've out - thought myself. I've reached the end of the tunnel, and there's nowhere to go. I've dwelled on enough details, wasted enough time, and I have yet to arrive upon a conclusion. to be honest, I despise improper endings - the goodbyes that are never explained, relations without closure. it's a cliche but sometimes, you just gotta do what you gotta do.
d  i  s  t  a  n  c  e 

september24
"but you're different."
bullshit.

september27
one
many more to come? I sure got my fingers crossed. but my lack of faith tells me that it'll be another one of those trivial details in life, just like the lights on your front porch. once it burns out, though you'll come across it everyday, you'll never make the effort to fix it, to replace it. and that's how I see this as. sure, the light brightens up the house, but once that burns out, there are plenty more. I still expect nothing.

october19
thanks for ruining my day. seriously.

october26
I've been waiting for the end ever since the beginning. but somehow, it's missing something. it's not satisfying, because I know it's not the end. you like to play your games. real endings aren't like this, no. I guess I'm just going to have to wait longer, be more patient, and really wait for the end.

october28
fuck you and your big fucking mouth.

november09
if I can be different, so can everybody else.
&people forget much too easily the things they don't want to remember.